my heart aches.....

my heart is heavy today :( i have been thinking about mike A LOT lately. i still have soo many unanswered questions. most of the weight comes from Corey though, my poor baby is never going to know his dad. i wish this is a pain he would never have to know, but i know its going to be a long hard road, and im here and ready to do it with him. every time i look at him i see soo much of mike and wish that he could have thought about corey and saw that he is enough of a reason to live. (ugh i feel like i dont make any sense today. just felt like putting up a post).